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Here’s another question. Would it kill high school students to be, I don’t know, POLITE and RESPECTFUL?

I pulled into a parking spot at my daughter’s high school, but it wasn’t a pretty moment. Actually it was a bit of a noisy operation as I heard my front tire squeal in objection, pulling a tad big too close to the curb as I turned in. I was not centered in my spot, but I was straight. A fact I was reminded of when I eventually pulled out of the parking stall. Straight is what mattered, and I most certainly wasn’t blocking anyone out of his or her vehicle to my right.

And still it seems I ruined some young lass’s home time. She was cursing as she walked between our two vehicles with her backpack strapped on, banging her water bottle the passenger door of my van in the process. And you bet I heard her calling me a bitch, she didn’t restrain her voice. And then she continued to complain to her friends heading to their own vehicles as she goes around to the other side of her SUV to get in from the passenger side. Ah, a wee bit of overkill? Drama queens. Gotta love ‘em.

Yes, I did get her licence plate number. Alberta registration. Wonder how long they’ve been in BC without getting new registration for this province? Should I file a complaint? To who? Would they even care? Someone might care if they have been in BC for more than three months and got caught… But not the authorities, I was sure of that. I’ve witnessed stupid road rage in high school parking lots before, and a lot worse than this. This was not of the same calibre, but I wanted to stand up for myself, and show this not-quite-a-child-any-longer but not-yet-a-grown-woman that it’s really not that cool to act in such a manner. In fact it’s quite immature. After all, one day she would need to learn to be respectful and responsible. Hell, one day she may even have kids of her own. What kind of role model will she be for them.

But it wasn’t my job to parent her. It did, however, get me thinking about this thing called “allowing”. Again. It’s been something I’ve been allowing and mentally working through for quite some time.

Allowing what? Allowing others to walk all over me? To let them have control over me? To let them take advantage of me? No. Allowing has nothing to do with another person at all!

Allowing is about one person alone. That’s the one peeking back at me when I look into the mirror. Allowing is so simple. And allowing is the most difficult thing to get a grasp on for the human. And I’m still walking “human” a lot it seems.

When one is ready to let go of controlling a situation and simply trusting, one is ready for allowing. No control. No drama. No uneasy feeling inside at all. No listening to what others say you should do. No reacting because it’s what others say is best.

It’s a tough place to be, this place of allowing. It can be very difficult because others around us will want to get their say in, their way in, dictate from their filters. That’s when the battle with the mind gets stronger, even once a decision is made to allow. Once that choice is made, suddenly all the creepy crawlies from past experiences and even self-empowerment books will come and say we’re doing it all wrong.

This itself is a journey. We choose to allow. Congratulations. We even win some battles with friends and family. Kudos. This process is one I think we should call a practice. You know, like the joke about doctors having a medical practice because they’re still learning, getting it right… Allowing is a pathway of practice. But with each time we just rest in allowing the stronger we get.

And this strength, again, is not mental or human in any way. This strength is found somewhere deeper. That’s why people on the outside see it as a weakness, perhaps, because they can’t see the blossoming occuring within us. Sure, some say they can. Even most intuitives don’t feel into the pureness of of the soul as they will sense things with their own filters. This is never about them anyway. And here is another opportune area we can practice allowing.

So how can we tell when we are truly in allowing? Let’s find another word for this to gain some insight. Freedom. Allowing and freedom are both truly attitudes. It’s where we find ourselves once we have truly forgiven ourselves for the lack that is in truth impossible, because One is our core essence. And within One there can not be any lack of any kind. It’s when we are at a place without need for controlling anything, that simple trust that it all comes to us, already and always. It’s the freedom we feel when there is nothing hanging over us, and there is no need to defend ourselves because defensive measures simply aren’t in our experience of living.

Sound like something only a yogi or monk can achieve? I can’t answer for them, but I do know that it’s really nothing to achieve at all. Allowing is who we are. That is, before we succumbed to humanity’s ways of absence and imprisonment. Or should I say, surrendered our divine freedom in order to be accepted, safe, supported, and all from the outside.

True, these things can be very important to the human trying to survive. But our priorities are all screwed up. And trying to climb up the rungs by way of carrying others and their possessions (beliefs) on our backs will only break us and bring us more struggle, something that is foreign to our very essence. That was never the way it was meant to be.

Allowing feels like you are the centre of the universe. Guess what. You ARE! I invite you to see yourself, right now, as your universe. That’s it. There is no one else. There is nothing holding your back or tethering your down. There is only you. Sense that. Let every one of your pre-determined beliefs be free for a while, just let them wonder on their own – they won’t go far I promise – and feel into your sole solidarity. Your Oneness. Feel yourself floating on a calm sea of Love, of trust, of absolute Being-ness. You lack for nothing in this state. Everything comes to you as you conceive the thought of it. Why? Because it’s already there. It is already part of you. How awesome is this Light-ness? There is only joy and bliss and peace and fullness.

Sit in this energy for as long as you want. This is yours. It’s not something I conjured up with my words. What you are feeling is what your state of allowing feels like in this moment. And it’s pretty simple.

And then enters those beliefs, and other humans. Life does continue. Challenges are relentless. Lessons are tough and memories are dug up from the ashes, at least until we are in a constant state of allowing, an endless awareness of our essence.

I won’t pretend I have it. I struggle daily. I’ve had awesome highs, and some great lows with many tears and frustrated discussions with friends that have transcended to deeper levels of allowing already. I am thankful for these people in my life for they urge me on. Those levels don’t look like anything strong or powerful to others, but then that doesn’t matter. It’s not their experiential journey. And theirs isn’t mine. And that’s a basic place to begin with your allowing. Allow yourself to just be in your free state of being, one experience at a time.

Allowing is a backbone of awakening to who we are on the flip side of this human identity. Take the plunge. Trust your Self. Trust your universe to take you deeper than you’ve ever gone before into Soul essence.

In the end, it doesn’t matter how far or how close we park from others’ vehicles, they will always play the power game until they allow themselves also. What we do in the quiet of our sacred hearts ripples out to the other souls sharing this same dimension. Yet, they are not why we are here. Not initially. So be all you are, and allow all you are.

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It’s Christmas. Yes, the general heart-felt greetings have been given and received, but this year I feel somewhat distant to the usual festivities. I don’t mean I’m a bah-humbug scrooge. On the contrary. The spirit of joy and giving and happiness is strong. As is the sense of newness and birthing the new which is traditionally about New Years celebrations. But this year to me the high voltage doorway was the Winter Solstice. And I mean High Voltage.

The energies of us all walking through this doorway of December 21 have certainly created a strong and tangible shift that has been felt by many. And while it’s very early Christmas Day here in Canada, the “reason for the season” isn’t the guiding force for me. Rather it’s the Christ Consciousness that we have all entered into together in a new and fantastic way.

The day after this Solstice was a very difficult one for me. I awoke feeling great. Not excited, but not achy or grouchy or even in a funk. Yet, it wasn’t long until I was met with other people and their dramas, and I began to absorb the energies around me like a sponge. An naive sponge.

If you don’t know what I mean by this, think about a party you have waiting all day for, gotten ready for, and now you’ve arrived all raring to join your friends and have a great time. Only, when you walk through the door your best friend is chumming with someone you don’t know, and you can hear others talking rather loudly in sarcastic tones. The bar tender doesn’t want to be working tonight and his mannerisms show it. A fight breaks out and soon people are pushing and shoving each other. Are you still excited to be there? Are you still feeling the rush of a good time? No, probably not. The energy in the room has changed and you are beginning to take it on. You have become a sponge. And you shove back.

Well, that was me the day after Solstice. I was slammed with this chaotic, angry, and confused energy, and I couldn’t shake it. I didn’t even know where it came from. In fact, it was half way through the day before I realized this wasn’t my energy or my issue at all, but truly the perplexed energies of the old world as if blindsided on its way out and reacting in fear. But by that time I was so invested in the anger and drama I couldn’t even find my way to the exit if I wanted to. I let it roar through me. But I was also acknowledging what was happening on some level, and that’s when I realized it was the mess of energies from the shift.

Breathing with my Self and choosing to release this funk helped but only to a certain degree. At some point I chose to continue to just let it be. I truly understood it wasn’t mine now, however. And throughout the evening I felt it releasing gradually.

The next day was so much better. But I felt like I’d been knocked over with a wrecking ball emotionally. Even my hubby noticed it in the energies on his iPhone gaming communities. Lots of anger and rage. It was interesting to feel this first hand and know it wasn’t mine, and yet be utterly drowning in it. The short wall is such a wonderful place to remain, watching from a distance what is going on without being personally and emotionally involved. That wasn’t my experiencing this time though.

As things shift even more I know we’ll see and feel these energies in stronger and more dramatic ways. And here I don’t mean traumatic but obvious and deliberate. The day before Christmas Eve was a whole new ballgame. It was fabulous. The energies were much different, and no doubt because of my awareness to them and my choice to remain true to myself again. But there had also been a shift “in the air” that I couldn’t ignore.

It was a great reminder that we are energy movers. There was a tendency at first for me to hold the energy in and claim it as mine. Oh, I did that and I wasn’t a happy camper! But once I could allow the energies to move and transmute within and through me, things began to change. And in hindsight I am honored to have served humanity in this way, though next time I think I’ll choose an easy task. ☺

So as we come together with family and friends in celebration, feel into the gathered energies. For the more sensitive this is vitally important. Feel into them and sense firstly if the vibrations are of love and unity or of fear and discord. Next, if they do not resonate with the energy of your Soul, know that these energies are not yours. Of course, it is your choice. We do not need to accept anything that disturbs peace and unconditional Love. But we can be there allowing our Love to resonate, allowing the Standard of our Truth to be there for others to gravitate to, physically or energetically.

We’ve crossed a threshold that was prophesied by the Mayans and many more ancient groups around the world. We have crossed over from the old age into the new world. There will be much shifting to come but it will become easier and easier, especially for us that are aware of how our consciousness is changing.

In the spirit of the season, be there to encourage, breathe with and share Love with one another. This isn’t to walk through the doors of change for them, but to be there with them, perhaps on the other side holding out our hand. I speak metaphorically of course, and there may be things we can physically do to assist, but simply being in our integrity will be one of the greatest gifts for others beginning to awaken now.

And please remember this: If you feel run over with an old energy wrecking ball, be kind to yourself. Breathe your Soul back into your human angel body and allow the energies to move through you. Don’t make them comfortable, serving them coffee and cookies. Allow them to move on through, naturally and without effort or pain.

The doorway to the new way that we all long for is here. We’ve walked through it and we will all experience it differently according to our consciousness levels. We aren’t waiting for some magical New years Day to begin this newness. No, we are already here as there really is no magical day at all. This is exciting and can also be a little crazy at times. Let’s hold our hearts together as we go forward, but also remember that each of us is here, on this planet now, because we chose to be. And we have what it takes to make this shift and succeed.

In honor of each of you, I give you my love and gently push your out of the nest to fly.

And…Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. ☺

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It’s time to check in with the body.  How are you doing?  How are you handling the new energies?  I invite you to take in a good grounding breath right now and feel into your muscles, skin, arms, toes, organs – your whole body.  How are you feeling in this moment?

I’ve been on a fantastically amazing and completely frustrating journey with my body.  Amazing because no matter what I do with my food intake I fall steps behind where I was before, where I’d like to be now.  Frustrating because whether I eat “good” or “bad”, or exercise or sleep or do nothing at all, my body is not treating me well.

So what am I experience?  Yes, the usual aches and pains, occasional dizziness still, and fatigue.  All this comes and goes as it will.  But what’s new in the last few months is what I would call bloating or swelling up.  It feels like I’m expanding so much and so fast on the inside that my skin is stretching and about to burst open, explode.  It’s not a good feeling.  I feel like an old woman with edema, prickly skin and stiffness all over.

I just attended a Gaia workshop (through Pepper Lewis) on Relationships.  All relationships. That includes the relationship with one’s body.  There was a fellow that asked a question of Gaia about his body.  He was experiencing bloating and swelling.  Gaia wasn’t gentle with him.  I love they way she cuts to our core issues.  He was more in his head than in his body.  His focus was on herbal supplements and other things he has learned as a healer, but Gaia kept directing him to getting out of his mental distractions.  Get back to the body.

This, obviously, got me thinking about my own situation.  True, distractions have certainly been entertaining me lately.  There has been a rush of activity and things to deal with in our family.  But this is the insight my soul was bringing me to…

Back in March on Kaua’i, Adamus brought us all to the threshold of choice.  Will you stay or will you go.  The topic was ascension through death or ascension in the body.  I had made my choice long before that, and re-established it then and there.  I choose to stay.  So much has indeed changed since we were born into this lifetime.  In fact, as the original plan went we were to have already destroyed ourselves.  So now I choose to stay and see where it all leads.  I choose to stay and work with the new energies, creating what I want to consciously.  I choose to stay and enjoy life here in a way that was impossible even ten years ago.  I choose to stay…

But in that choosing I left something out.  I was coming from a place beyond my 3D expression, from my soul or spirit being.  I had forgotten my body.  I didn’t think I did.  In fact, I have been trying to figure out what foods it is wanting, giving it rest when I’m ready to keel over in exhaustion, and gentle activity when I feel up to it.  And still I am tired.  Still I have no energy.  Still I bloat and feel less than healthy.  There is a missing connection, and I believe I forgot to invite my body along for this ride.  And it’s been trying to get my attention.  Well I’m listening now.

Earlier during the day yesterday, Gaia said that bloating is caused by a misalignment of the body through lack of hydration, eating processed foods, or the lack of sleep.  I would add that misalignment is caused by our preference for one of our bodies over another.  If you have been on a similar path to mine for long, awakening to our true essence has been on the forefront of focus.  Ascending.  Attaining enlightenment.  Becoming aware of our spiritual part.  You may have your own description for it, but I believe one side effect of this is that we may forget the partnering or relationship to our bodies in the process.  And simply take them for granted.  It’s one of our aspects, and if it’s forgotten or ignored or otherwise abused it will act out in some way.

And this may be a way to cope with the changes that our physical bodies are going through at the moment.  Mine is telling me that it’s time to reconnect again.

I don’t have any exact answers.  This is so very fresh and new.  There are moments I remember the body and spend time with it, and I feel whole and connect.  But I now choose to be present all the time.  We walk around using the auto functioning capability of the body and don’t give it a second thought.  We know it will walk to the car when we want to go for a drive, digest our food when we have a meal.  We even know it will see the walls of our bedroom when we open our eyes in the morning.  We take these actions for granted.  We aren’t a conscious part of such activities.  And sure, we don’t need to be as our bodies have been programmed to operate in such a way that our hearts keep pumping and our lungs keep taking in air.  But this is a most basic way of surviving today.  There is so much more I believe, a deeper way to experience this life we have chosen to live.

What if we chose to be present with our every breath?  Feeling that air enter and exit our chest, feeling the energy flow into every part of our bodies time and time again?  What if we became the essence of the food we ingest with every bite, and feel our own energy merge inside as the nutrients are accepted and put to optimum use?  What if we focused on our skin, magnifying the senses, as we step into the shower and feel, with every drop, the opening up to refreshment, warmth and relaxation?  What if this kind of presence awareness was a continual experience?  Feeling each tap on the fingertips as you type on the keyboard, allowing thoughts and feelings to flow into your words.  Or touching the soft and supple flesh on your belly and know your own innocence as you continue this journey in trust and complete love.

What if these experiences weren’t only once in a while?  What if this was the way we experienced life every moment of every day?  How would that effect you?  How would that reflect in your relationship with your Self?  Can we even imagine the sweet union between our whole beingness?

So now that we’ve chosen to stay here and express our Love and Light in every experience, we need to be in our bodies!  Walking around half-numbed to the world may be a great way to ignore the sensitivities we are developing, but it’s doing little in the way of integrating all that we are.  Our bodies are here to serve us in this journey.  Without them we could not experience this life.

Each morning I will be challenging myself to express my inbodied ascension in a new way.  Each morning I will take the time to see my body, feel it, and appreciate it.  Each day I will enter into a new standard of relationship with my body.  I am sure this partnership will take on a different look at any moment, and I will nurture this new energy dance with my body moment by moment.  What I know is that I’m grateful that my body loves me enough to get my attention.  From here we’ll take the journey together in a conscious trust and love.

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When I was going through my “new age” experiences I experimented with rocks and crystals as all good metaphysical girls do. I used their energies for healing and even slept with them under my pillow, hoping they’d increase my dream recall. Many years later, I have now put aside that aspect of crystals, though I still own many specimens and simply love them for their beauty.

Recently my husband came home from a trip with a new crystal for his collection. He is enjoying his experiences with the rock and gem world, and occasionally asks me to read them. Surprisingly, I now have some very interesting conversations with rocks. This crystal he came home with is a simple quartz wand on a leather necklace. While I was enjoying a foot rub I closed my eyes and focused on this rock.

Immediately I saw the inside of a large library, its walls lined with shelves of books from floor to ceiling. As all romantically beautiful libraries can boast, this one had a sliding ladder for easy access to all the resident books, and I could almost imagine this crystal as an animated character hanging onto the ladder, sliding and searching for one book or another. I knew the rock was a record keeper and as such was a doorway to the Akashic Records. So I tried it out, figured I’d see if this doorway could tell me more about a lifetime I had as a Pythia at Delphi.

Sure enough the crystal lost no time in sharing with me things from my time as a Pythia in the temple of Apollo. My name was Syrna, and I was a relatively young Priestess, when the Pythia were typically aged thirty and older. While the story unfolded bringing me insight to that lifetime and beyond, my point in bringing this up isn’t to share the story.

For the reader who may not know, the Pythia were Priestesses of Apollo at Delphi, in Greece. They were the oracles who received messages from the god Apollo, influenced by intoxicating vapors coming up from a crack in the floor where she sat. Recorded history of that time is full of kings and leaders who could afford the price to bend the god’s ear, hoping to receive a favourable word of prophecy from the oracle.

So what does this history have to do with us today? Nothing and everything. We are at a breaking point, a split in our realities, where we must of necessity close the door to the need for a Pythia. We are about to step into our authentic power with all the wisdom and connection we need without going to a source outside of ourselves. In other words, we are growing up, and maturing into the divine Human Angels that we are essentially. This is a sign of our awakening.

As we step over this threshold we are confronted with many attacks on our personal authority. The first and perhaps strongest is our doubt.  We have placed our trust in others for so long that we have forgotten to listen to our own soul’s wisdom. Yes, there are channels I still listen to and enjoy as I resonate with them. But I also am fully aware that my own time of channeling brings much richness to my life. I am on a journey of learning to listen to my inner truths. My own battle with doubt plays out in this area all the time, whether I’m sitting down and channeling or receiving a word in a moment of inspiration. We habitually seek outside confirmation. The antidote to such doubt is to trust ourselves implicitly. The innate wisdom we have is in perfect alignment with who and where we are in each moment. There is no need to look elsewhere.

While the Pythia of old were influenced by the intoxicating fumes, or breath, from inside Mount Parnassus, we only need rely on our own precious breath. This is truly a gift that we take for granted time and time again. Yet it is a link for us between being grounded in our bodies and expanded into our higher essence at the same time. Without the breath we live only half the life we are capable of. And knowing it is a priceless tool in connecting with our perfect inner wisdom, why ignore that it is available for us? Take in a precious, conscious breath in this moment now, for you.

Not surprisingly, the Pythian messages came in a jumble of mixed images and words that didn’t always form coherent thoughts. However, this is where the Priest would step in and interpret the words of Apollo. That’s why he was paid the big bucks. Today, there is no need for others to interpret our words. Our wisdom is for ourselves, and allowing others to re-interpret through their filters can cause more confusion than it’s worth. Likewise, if we’re giving a message to another, it is their interpretation that is the potent piece, not ours. Trusting ourselves to release a message to another is maturity on a spiritual level as well.

One final thought on being the new Pythia is that we are God. We are Divinity. There is no God outside of ourselves that has any piece of the puzzle we are missing. Still, at times we can miss what’s right in front of our eyes. Energy is all around us willing and eager to serve. Perhaps a book, a song, or our friend across the world will have a word to share that helps open our eyes to see what’s right there. Like the Priestesses of Apollo, there was never just one. There was always a small group of Pythia at any one time, all in service to each other, especially to the one chosen by the Priest to be the oracle at any one time. The others were there to assist her in preparations and whatever she needed for the task at hand. We, too, are never alone. Though we are sovereign beings, we are supported at all times. In fact, because we are sovereign we are supported.

As we forge ahead in these new times, new energies, be reminded to trust yourself. Sometimes the oracle received no message. At times her message was filled with so much confusion the Priest couldn’t interpret it. Still, the Pythia continued to serve, and the people continued to come. It was a time of necessary depending on others to get to where the ancients were heading. Today we have surpassed their journey and are walking a new path. We are now being called to trust our own wisdom and be our own oracles. It’s a journey of learning to lean on your own wisdom without second-guessing. There will certainly be times we fall short of what we expect but that’s part of our re-learning our own truths.

Where we’re headed affords no room for doubt. There is no room for relying on others before ourselves. It’s time now to be sovereign. It’s time now to become your own Master. It’s time now to be Love and Light. As we walk into this new dimension of living, I leave you with this…  We ARE walking into a new dimension of living, one that we perhaps only hoped for when we came into this lifetime. We have done a fantastic job.

Breathe that in.

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