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For me, at this time, I see the inflow of energies and ensuing upgrades as very, very intimate and personal. No matter if they come on waves of gamma, photons or other radiation, as the human part of us understands, they will affect us in different ways. It’s not the energy that determines what we feel or experience, nor where it is coming from. Rather, it’s the beliefs, old identities and perceptions that have already risen to the surface, raised their hands to say, “I have outlived my purpose in your experience. I’m ready to be acknowledged by your conscious mind and body. I am ready to be understood, appreciated for the gift of my service, be burnt up, and release or integrated.” This is what this energetic upgrading is about.

We are all feeling it. But we don’t all recognize it for what it is. Sooner or later we start to catch on. And when we choose to take an intimate look within and see what’s happening inside us personally, we can get a broader view of it all. And with the awareness of this purging, we can finally work with our bodies, with our minds, to ease the process. Again, that ease will have a different feel and flavour for each one of us.

I want to share an experience. In this past week there has been much going on. Not on the outside, where the human mind sees and articulates, but within. My body has sure been feeling the intensity again. After several months of feeling respite, my joints again started to feel that familiar ache, deep and debilitating. As each day passed, it grew stronger and it became difficult to navigate the stairs, in both directions, without me thinking about taking each step carefully and firmly planning my feet down each time. Funny how things we take for granted normally can become a bigger undertaking at these times. And don’t get me started on driving while having a conversation with someone.

On the inside I’m tackling some hard discussions with myself. Now, I know this may at a deeper level than you may struggle with. I’ve always been very philosophical, and I typically don’t take these thought processes lightly. The choice before me now was like choosing to remain snorkeling among the pretty, brightly coloured fish in the lagoon or suiting on the heavier oxygen tanks and letting gravity take me deeper down into the waters that resist the sunlight in search for a priceless treasure that may or may not be there. The treasure de jour? What is beyond this illusionary life?

It’s a make or break time for me in a way. I sense the realness of it, the gravity of this struggle. As we go along in our awakening path, we attract information to us, experiences, people with keys, clues. And it’s our job to fit them all together as it is appropriate for us. Remember, another’s truth isn’t necessarily our own. But these little gems are offered to us to find our truth.

And I’ve been receiving many gems lately. And following them, finding myself questioning. Now, I have always seen asking questions as healthy, and really the only way to find our answers. So I keep asking and nd I keep listening. Watching. But sometimes it seems like no answers are given. This was what I was experiencing now. Lots of questions without definitive responses. Just more lures and enticements. What is beyond this experience? There really is no such thing as a belief. A belief is only something we create to take us from one space to another, one point in our thinking or acting to another. Incidentally, that includes the beliefs we have of an afterlife, God, creation…

I know the life we live is created from energy, nothing solid, it’s quantum. It’s a mind-boggling thing, but it’s something I’ve accepted for some time now. How far does that carry? All the spiritual stories I’ve been taught are part of that. Stories are usually used as teaching mechanisms. If what I’ve been taught as spiritual truths are also simply teaching devices, then what’s beyond that. IS there anything beyond that? Is there anything beyond this world? This universe? This consciousness?

Yeah, I know. Deep. Yet expanded. Perhaps it’s time to redefine it. Expanded contemplation. Well, this inner dialogue, coupled with these waves of gamma upgrades, I’ve been having an explosive time navigating it all. Ups and downs. Joys, frustrations and numbness. Wine. Those that are consciously on the awakening journey will perhaps relate to this in some ways. Those that aren’t will wonder why I waste my time and energy thinking like this. Again, welcome to the intimate and personal space. I share this for those that are maybe struggling as I have been, to encourage you, and inspire you.

Back to the land of the living, I went for coffee with a friend on Friday. It was a good time, and as is normal we got talking about all of this stuff. Talking it out was good, articulating it in human words what my spirit was grappling with was difficult, and that process was freeing as well. She reminded me to be less stringent along the way, that it’s a flow, an organic flow. My humanness wants to know and understand everything NOW, or better yet, yesterday. But that’s not the way this works when we are choosing the difficult way of mental understanding.

Needing to know what’s beyond, though I’m getting hints and teases, isn’t something I need to comprehend. Especially at this stage.

The rest of my day was amazingly and clearly befuddling – in a very joyous way. I was allowing something to come up that’s been lurking just under the surface for a very long time. Following each stepping stone in my path, I was getting nearer to something big. I could feel it. I didn’t understand it. But it was exciting. And I was getting heavier, and my joints were hurting stronger, and my gut was drawing my attention. I knew there was a big upgrade in process.

After dinner it got worse. Different. Something was definitely shifting. I was getting nauseous again, something I get a lot, but this was distinctive and I wondered if I’d be vising the bathroom tonight. I tried some tricks I’ve learned like drinking water, or eating something salty and saturated in fat. Yes, chips. Sometimes they are a good assistant with integration. But after one little chip I knew it wasn’t the answer. Dark chocolate? No, that wasn’t working either. I lay in bed. Breathing deeply. The nausea had turned to being on the verge of vomiting my now. I don’t get that way often, but this night I could feel a huge purging on the horizon.

As I lay there, I also read a short couple chapters in “Navigating Dimensions” by Lisa Brown, on the subject of partnering or cultivating a strong relationship with your soul. This is something that’s not new to any of us on this journey. In fact, you could say the journey itself IS the integration between the humanness and the soul. The communication between the two will always have room for improved intensity until we are purely One. So as I lay there, I start up a dialogue.

I can honestly say I’ve never felt my soul closer, or more excited about this moment we were sharing. Yes, I know words are limited. Whether I say soul, higher self or over soul, it doesn’t really matter. It’s that part of us that we don’t understand, that we seldom include consciously in our lives. It’s time to invite that part in. And it was such a beautiful communication I had with mine.

Again, words are limited. And the words we spoke together were truly only for my human clarification. Still, I got much from this experience.

The soul doesn’t mince energies, nor words. It came straight to the point. I was feeling awful and I seeking help in handling the energy upgrades. At this point I didn’t realize that what I was feeling was the point, rather than just a “symptom”. My soul said to me, “You’ve always been the deep one. You’re too deep, you miss your answers for the deep digging you do to search for them.” I snapped out of my connection because I wanted to remember this. That mind still wants to dictate and remember how it’s experienced. I quieted it down again and reconnected, and continued the discussion. The way I was feeling WAS the answer to my question of what is beyond. I got the strong answer that I could have left the body at that time, to find out what was beyond.

But at that same time it wasn’t my conscious choice to do so. I had considered a lot that day. Bouncing one thought around, then another. In the end it isn’t thinking that solves the equations. It’s resting. Allowing that the answers are there, and no longer struggling to grasp them. And by the time the conversation was nearing an end, the last thing I heard from my soul was “Lighthearted”…over and over again, with a lilt of laughter in the air of it all. I let the struggle go.

As I look back at the last number of months and all the signs and messages that have come my way, I can see the thread of what’s lead me right to this very place. Of course, it’s been an orchestration of my own – it’s personal. And I can feel into the flow of it now, where as before it was just words and intellectual ramblings.

That night before I fell asleep the sickness I was feeling had already started to dissipate. I no longer needed to take the hard road to get to point B. Shedding beliefs can be that simple. When we allow them to be so. I don’t have a cognitive answer for all of my questions that were flying around in my head. I don’t need them. There is no need to fill a void that no longer exists there. Again it’s not something I can explain, rather something only one can experience for oneself. The treasure of this evening was to let the flow happen in a natural way, without pushing through any veil, and just be joyful and lighthearted with every beat of the heart.

My sharing this is to inspire each of you to continue. Of course, we can’t discontinue this journey once we’ve chosen to embark on it. We can fool ourselves in thinking we can, but the truth is even that is part of the letting go.

I awoke the next morning wish such a different feeling and flow in my body and mind. There’s a freedom, and ease here now. Allowing is a powerful tool we have at our disposal for this awakening and uniting with our souls. Actually, it’s the only tool we have. We can’t force it to happen. It’s not something we will or dictate to be, or plan like an itinerary for a trip. We can only let it flow naturally, following the cues we have created already to be there.

When our bodies or minds start to feel the upgrading and connecting it’s a clue to us to LISTEN. What are we thinking? Contemplating? Resisting? What old patterns are we repeating that are ready to be released? What beliefs are being challenged? Where are we limiting ourselves? Once we have a feeling on it, simply acknowledge it, thank it for serving us to this place, and release our connection to it.

I have shared a little of my recent experience because I know I’m not the only one going through this. If this helps you feeling freer and more natural in how you navigate your journey I am glad. With each piece of who we no longer are is released the more who we are can come in and reside fully in our humanness. Imagine being a human and an angel, right here, right now. There are no words to express what this may look like.

Remember, the journey is your creation. You make it what you will, through your conscious interaction with it, with you choices, with the opening of your heart and the allowing of the natural flow. Even the parts we feel powerless in, it is here because we have created it in our ultimate wisdom. Enjoy it, no matter what it looks like. BE it fully. Flow freely and naturally with all that you attract into your awareness. Love to you.


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My son just turned 22, and it shocked him a little. He looked at his birthday card from us and stopped to ask, “I’m really 22?”. It brough out smiles and laughter, as we sat back with full bellies. He helped me make pizzas for his birthday dinner with the family. Yes, from scratch. We had lots of fun with the dough.

Oh, I love making bread and this was an actual pizza dough recipe we were using, not my usual “just throw this in, that in” kind of job. So it was thicker than my normal dough so I knew it was going to be awesome for pizza. We let the dough rise once and then punched the hand-sized balls down. I put them in sandwich bags to chill overnight till we needed them the next day. I like to be prepared

I took the last two balls of bagged dough and headed to the fridge. Eeeek. There is dough oozing out of the baggies. Not through the zipped top, though. No. The dough created its own escape routes. Some bags had many holes of different sizes. It was rather humorous to me, but then I wondered if we’d need to make more dough.

Quick. Think. Freeze the dough. I oiled and piled the dough balls onto a tray and double-wrapped it all up, and made the trip to the freezer. Whew. Crises averted. I  check up on them a couple hours later. They had risen in the freezer and were still soft. Perhaps I rolled my eyes a little, but I know I took a deep breath and just walked away smiling, letting them freeze. It would all work out. I’d take them out to thaw about 2am. And it did all work out. Beautifully, and deliciously.

There are no lessons in life for the Master, but this was a fantastic reminder of who we are. Yes, we’re dough. Our purest form is like dough. And it’s a natural expression of our doughiness to expand. Now, here’s where the interesting thing happens, the thing that consumes us until we realize we don’t need to worry about it.

We have this body that seems dense and very solid to us. It’s not pliable like dough. It’s rather rigid and tries to constrict our doughiness like the sandwich baggies were doing. There is resistance from the bag, our humanness, that tries to fence in our doughiness, to keep it contained. Many of us are feeling this constriction right now where our bodies/humanness and our aware beingness are coming together. There can be a resistance that’s felt as our bodies respond to the expansion of who-we-are. And that can sometimes bring physical issues that we don’t want, like the baggies being popped open like swiss cheese.

What to do? Breathe. Oh, those little balls of zipped up dough were breathing! And they broke through, allowing for their expansion. But as a Master we don’t knead, sorry, need to bust through our physical bodies to be who we really are. Just allowing our light bodies to work with our physical bodies will ease the process. No barriers. No resistance. Allowing all parts of us to ease into this new expansion together.

The light body is something new for most of us, and we’re still learning/remembering that it is ours and how to be with it. But in this doughy allegory it’s like placing the balls of dough on an oiled tray with plastic wrap and foil put around it. It allows for expansion by nature. There is no force, no holding-in, and certainly no need to force our way through to expand. There’s a natural resilience and allowance. It’s all working together perfectly, acknowledging who-we-are to breathe in our expansion.

I hope you enjoyed this funny little experience with me. In the end the pizza we created was wonderful, truly worth all the drama and coming back to the simplicity of just allowing it to expand. Like our journey of Mastery. Just let it happen, without force or restriction, and our expansion is a very pleasant thing. And satisfying. Bon Appetit.

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It sneaked up on us a day earlier than usual this year, but it’s a lovely day here in Edmonton to celebrate the Summer Solstice.  It’s a time of sowing seeds and nurturing them, allowing them to grow and become abundant.  And in this time of abundant creativity, there is also a time for a great resetting of ourselves.

There has been much talk, many channels and lots of discussion around how our bodies, minds and emotions are getting a great overhaul, a reset, or as Kryon calls it a recalibration.  Even our DNA is resetting as I write these words and you are reading them.  We as a human species are in this very moment undergoing a special transformation.  We are welcoming our new bodies of Light and Spirit.

What does this mean?  It means that as we reset we may lose things we thought were “us”, the very fabric of who we thought we were.  We are in the process of letting go of belief systems that were set into place long ago by others, by our personal experiences, by the lessons of the past.  These beliefs that are holding us back are now being stripped away.  It can be a simple process, but the harder we hold on to these accepted ideas, the more difficult the cleanse will be.  After all, we can be a very stubborn race.  Some may be rolling their eyes and saying, again?  Yes, we will be cleansing and resetting until we are living our true essence in each and every moment.

It may not feel very spiritual at the outset, but the physical body is a very sacred part of us, and not separate form this great resetting.  It’s the body we chose to experience this time in Earth’s history, to be a part of the great moment of humanity’s awakening.  Bless this body of yours.

Over the last few years I have come to effort with, mistrust, doubt, trust again, like and finally love my own body.  Have you gone through a similar journey recently?  My body is not responding to what it used to through diet.  And I’ve changed it several times, as many of you know.  I had much success with the Blood Type diet in the past, but it did not work now.  I have tried raw foods, and gained weight.  Sure, the detoxes work in a mild remembrance of a great cleanse, but then as soon as I’m done I bloat and feel gross again.  And I finally got it.  My body isn’t simply rebelling on me.  It’s resetting itself.

We were out shopping for clothing at Good Will last weekend.  As my daughter was trying on some last minute clothes, I sauntered over to the book area just to see what they had.  I found a book called Master Your Metabolism by Jillian Michaels and felt a connection with it.  So I bought it.  I haven’t finished reading it yet, in fact I’m just done the first chapter.  Jillian she shares her own experiences, her love/hate relationship with food and exercise, and she is a real inspiration in the way she writes and you can feel her passion for this subject.  She really wants to help others.  But what really caught my attention was her promise to show me how to reset my body’s metabolism.  And I choose to be an active player in this resetting, pure, simple and effortless.  I know my body will no doubt take on its own direction but this is a starting point for me.

This year is all about resetting so I can go forward in abundance and bring into my life that which I consciously choose from a place of passion and love.  And this will come only through the release of the old and resetting the “programs” with the new.  No matter what the reset looks and feels like, or where the assistance comes from, it’s a gift I give myself.  I look forward to the new me.  Will you join me in this inward and outward journey?

You deserve the abundance that’s already within you.  You deserve to live the life of health, wealth and grace in every way.  Celebrate this Solstice with a gift to yourself.  Be present and consciously work with the resetting of your self, planting of a new you.  Nurture that new you with Love and allowance, beauty in all forms, laughter and Light.  And get ready for some new and fantastic abundance.

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It’s time to check in with the body.  How are you doing?  How are you handling the new energies?  I invite you to take in a good grounding breath right now and feel into your muscles, skin, arms, toes, organs – your whole body.  How are you feeling in this moment?

I’ve been on a fantastically amazing and completely frustrating journey with my body.  Amazing because no matter what I do with my food intake I fall steps behind where I was before, where I’d like to be now.  Frustrating because whether I eat “good” or “bad”, or exercise or sleep or do nothing at all, my body is not treating me well.

So what am I experience?  Yes, the usual aches and pains, occasional dizziness still, and fatigue.  All this comes and goes as it will.  But what’s new in the last few months is what I would call bloating or swelling up.  It feels like I’m expanding so much and so fast on the inside that my skin is stretching and about to burst open, explode.  It’s not a good feeling.  I feel like an old woman with edema, prickly skin and stiffness all over.

I just attended a Gaia workshop (through Pepper Lewis) on Relationships.  All relationships. That includes the relationship with one’s body.  There was a fellow that asked a question of Gaia about his body.  He was experiencing bloating and swelling.  Gaia wasn’t gentle with him.  I love they way she cuts to our core issues.  He was more in his head than in his body.  His focus was on herbal supplements and other things he has learned as a healer, but Gaia kept directing him to getting out of his mental distractions.  Get back to the body.

This, obviously, got me thinking about my own situation.  True, distractions have certainly been entertaining me lately.  There has been a rush of activity and things to deal with in our family.  But this is the insight my soul was bringing me to…

Back in March on Kaua’i, Adamus brought us all to the threshold of choice.  Will you stay or will you go.  The topic was ascension through death or ascension in the body.  I had made my choice long before that, and re-established it then and there.  I choose to stay.  So much has indeed changed since we were born into this lifetime.  In fact, as the original plan went we were to have already destroyed ourselves.  So now I choose to stay and see where it all leads.  I choose to stay and work with the new energies, creating what I want to consciously.  I choose to stay and enjoy life here in a way that was impossible even ten years ago.  I choose to stay…

But in that choosing I left something out.  I was coming from a place beyond my 3D expression, from my soul or spirit being.  I had forgotten my body.  I didn’t think I did.  In fact, I have been trying to figure out what foods it is wanting, giving it rest when I’m ready to keel over in exhaustion, and gentle activity when I feel up to it.  And still I am tired.  Still I have no energy.  Still I bloat and feel less than healthy.  There is a missing connection, and I believe I forgot to invite my body along for this ride.  And it’s been trying to get my attention.  Well I’m listening now.

Earlier during the day yesterday, Gaia said that bloating is caused by a misalignment of the body through lack of hydration, eating processed foods, or the lack of sleep.  I would add that misalignment is caused by our preference for one of our bodies over another.  If you have been on a similar path to mine for long, awakening to our true essence has been on the forefront of focus.  Ascending.  Attaining enlightenment.  Becoming aware of our spiritual part.  You may have your own description for it, but I believe one side effect of this is that we may forget the partnering or relationship to our bodies in the process.  And simply take them for granted.  It’s one of our aspects, and if it’s forgotten or ignored or otherwise abused it will act out in some way.

And this may be a way to cope with the changes that our physical bodies are going through at the moment.  Mine is telling me that it’s time to reconnect again.

I don’t have any exact answers.  This is so very fresh and new.  There are moments I remember the body and spend time with it, and I feel whole and connect.  But I now choose to be present all the time.  We walk around using the auto functioning capability of the body and don’t give it a second thought.  We know it will walk to the car when we want to go for a drive, digest our food when we have a meal.  We even know it will see the walls of our bedroom when we open our eyes in the morning.  We take these actions for granted.  We aren’t a conscious part of such activities.  And sure, we don’t need to be as our bodies have been programmed to operate in such a way that our hearts keep pumping and our lungs keep taking in air.  But this is a most basic way of surviving today.  There is so much more I believe, a deeper way to experience this life we have chosen to live.

What if we chose to be present with our every breath?  Feeling that air enter and exit our chest, feeling the energy flow into every part of our bodies time and time again?  What if we became the essence of the food we ingest with every bite, and feel our own energy merge inside as the nutrients are accepted and put to optimum use?  What if we focused on our skin, magnifying the senses, as we step into the shower and feel, with every drop, the opening up to refreshment, warmth and relaxation?  What if this kind of presence awareness was a continual experience?  Feeling each tap on the fingertips as you type on the keyboard, allowing thoughts and feelings to flow into your words.  Or touching the soft and supple flesh on your belly and know your own innocence as you continue this journey in trust and complete love.

What if these experiences weren’t only once in a while?  What if this was the way we experienced life every moment of every day?  How would that effect you?  How would that reflect in your relationship with your Self?  Can we even imagine the sweet union between our whole beingness?

So now that we’ve chosen to stay here and express our Love and Light in every experience, we need to be in our bodies!  Walking around half-numbed to the world may be a great way to ignore the sensitivities we are developing, but it’s doing little in the way of integrating all that we are.  Our bodies are here to serve us in this journey.  Without them we could not experience this life.

Each morning I will be challenging myself to express my inbodied ascension in a new way.  Each morning I will take the time to see my body, feel it, and appreciate it.  Each day I will enter into a new standard of relationship with my body.  I am sure this partnership will take on a different look at any moment, and I will nurture this new energy dance with my body moment by moment.  What I know is that I’m grateful that my body loves me enough to get my attention.  From here we’ll take the journey together in a conscious trust and love.

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